Height: 5'1''
Weight: About 8 stone 5
Size (Uk): 10
Calories today: 140


Talk about pathetic. I haven't been to the gym for a week and I've been overflooded with junk because I turned 16 on Tuesday and my sister came home yesterday for the weekend.

Next week, though. I'm going to control myself. 
And then...

I will be a size 8 this summer.

:) Wish me luck.

Vegetables
I serving of parsnip (50.0g):  68 calories
1/2 cup of sprouts                :  28 calories (1 sprout = 8 calories)
1 slice of carrot                     : 1 calorie (yay :D)
3 flowerets of cauliflower    : 12 calories
Mashed Potato (28g)           : 29 calories

Roasted Stuff
Nut Roast (Tesco)160 g srvng  : 218 calories
Roasted Chicken Breast (I srv): 280 calories
1/2 a cup of Roast potato's        : 131 calories

Other
Yorkshire Puddings (large): 292 calories
Gravy (vegetarian, Bisto)    : 184 calories
Gravy (normal)                      : 212 calories (roughly)

68+28+12+29+20(carrots)= 157 For all the vegetables
218+184+131 = 633 for nut roast, potatos and gravy

About 790 calories in total. Eeshk =[

790 + 131= 921 calories.

Puuurge.

I'm staying home to do coursework and I already have hunger pangs! I don't get it! I've have breakfast (filtered water on weetabix) AND I've pigged out on a handful of yogurt covered raisins (130 in 28g, but I don't know how much a handful is). So 190 calories.

I'm an overweight poo.

I'm planning on avoiding lunch to make up or the raisins and drinking/eating ice pops instead. Problem is lunch. My mum is home so she might investigate me not eating. I think I'll say I'm not hungry because I've been lazing around, but then she'll say 'You've got to eat, you need nutrients, you're a growing girl...etc'

Yeah. I'm growing out and out, more like it.

I'm a size 10. Ewww. (For american people that's like a size 8 or 6, I'm not sure.) But I will slim. I WILL.

Listening to lots of soft acoustic music. It's really calming. It's like my heart is just shivering and there's so much tension around my chest and back. Smells Like Teen Spirit by Tori Amos makes me want to cry.

Cheesy as it sound but my heart feels like it's freezing and my shoulder muscles get all tight, like I'm really cold.

I feel so fragile, but I know I'm not. I'm just a fat, ugly waste.

I'mn so glad I have this music. It's so soothing. I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep to it forever.

Today is god awful. For anybody who believes they've binged, take comfort in the fact I have done far far worse than you.


1360 calories. Fuck. Me.

And That's Before Dinner.

To say the least, I'm a fat, disgusting pig who will never be attractive to the most ugliest skank.

So, I'm going to move on and make up for it - I'm not eating the slightest hint of junk for a month, and I'm restricting myself to a plan close to the following:

Breakfast:
-ONE Weetabix with filtered water instead of skimmed milk : 60 calories

Lunch/Break:
-An apple and Orange : 100-130 calories

Dinner:
- Try to eat only half, or purge: 300-450 calories

60 115 370= 545 calories a day on average.

The Best= 460 calories or less

The Worst= 640 calories or more :o


I just hope that I won't get invited around my bf's on a Friday - that's when they have fish and chips - 1000 calories per serving!! If I do, I guess I won't eat the whole of that day or Saturday until dinner.